40. Haunted Spaces
To say a cathedral loomed would mean that it was threatening, intimidating, or had the intention of making one feel small. Cass knew: it was just a building, and if anyone were to make Cass feel small, it would be her own milling about the graveyard and lamenting the end of her life. She could cross, become one with the ether. Of course she could cross. But who would want to? Especially when I could just wait here among the tombstones for him. See his face. See his face as he remembers what he did, to me. Attach myself to his coat, follow him home. Carve a memory into his brain to sleep with night after night-- serves him right, after all these years... just as soon as he stops by.
HAUNTED SPACES presents itself as a warning: don't fixate on something you don't want to consume you. Learn how your mind processes trauma and work within that formula to move to a more productive standpoint. By processing the things that have happened in the past (whether trauma, relationship ills and woes, or trespass), we free ourselves up to hold space for others instead of shut down around our injury. As with all injuries, healing happens with the right salves and supports are provided. So, knead through the lumps in understanding. Try to stop seeking reinjury by ruminating on past experiences. It's ok to long for those better times, but HAUNTED SPACES reminds us when we fixate on them we are denying ourselves the happiness that's in front of us, here and now.
This card is part of the AUTUMN Suit in the Woven Wisdom Oracle, which notes lessons from the empowered voices in the twilight of life, who have lived experience. How can we learn from others strengths, or shortcomings?
Could relate to: a finished but unresolved relationship, processing toxic or abusive behaviors, unhealthy fixation on the past to the point of neglecting the present and future.
What do the patterns in my speaking, thinking, and writing reveal about my fixations?
What mental traps do I constantly find myself in, regarding this situation?
Do I need to get more distance between myself and other people or past events?
How realistically am I recalling the past?
YES/NO: NO, THERE'S YET MUCH TO SORT OUT.